Too tiered of this fake life?

Everyone around me respect me as a powerfull & strong person. in reality i am not that strong, i myself make life sooo fake that even my wife / mother and whole family dont even know exactly what i am and what i do professionally. I am fed up of this very very fake & misleading life. i cant prentend me fake... show more Everyone around me respect me as a powerfull & strong person. in reality i am not that strong, i myself make life sooo fake that even my wife / mother and whole family dont even know exactly what i am and what i do professionally. I am fed up of this very very fake & misleading life. i cant prentend me fake anymore. i afraid if these people knw my reality they start hating me. and i cant hear my daughter saying me lier .
I cant even suicide coz my daughter think i am a very strong person. But i afraid now to see myself in mirror. A whole series of FAILURES really break my confidence.

Finally i want to die a respectful Death. not as a coward or lier.
Like an accident , an earthquake etc which seems natural.
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