Reaching out for help is a positive step. It sounds like you are dealing with some difficult challenges right now. We would suggest facing your problems so you can attempt to resolve them. Know that you don't have so struggle alone.
It's so important that you let someone close to you know about your struggles. Please consider reaching out to a trusted adult such as a parent, aunt, uncle, school counselor, teacher, coach, or minister. We would suggest getting involved in counseling and contacting a hotline crisis counselor. The more support you have the better. Please remember that there are people who care about you and want to help.
Boys Town National Hotline 1-800-448-3000, www.yourlifeyourvoice.org