Thank you for reaching out for help. It sounds like you have been through a lot lately. Anxiety and intrusive thoughts can be scary, but it is possible to stop them. The thoughts that you think dictate the feelings that you feel. If you think negative, scary, or panicky thoughts, your brain releases chemicals that make you feel anxiety and irrational thoughts. If you think positive thoughts, your brain releases chemicals that make you feel happy and calm. To overcome anxiety, you must change your thought patterns.
The average person thinks a negative thought every two minutes! Then, after writing down the negative or scary thought, immediately write down or say out loud a positive thought. Come up with a list of positive thoughts that you can tell yourself: “I’m OK.” “Today is a good day because I am choosing that it will be.” “I am strong.”
“This too will pass, and I will get through this.”
Sometimes it can help to talk to someone and tell them about what you are going through. There are many hotlines that are 24/7 and will work with you and situations like yours. Some even have email and/or chat if you would prefer. You may want to consider talking with a counselor at a hotline.
Hopefully, you will continue to reach out! Sincerely, KO