Before anyone thinks I dont care please know the whole story. She has halucinations and the voice tells her to kill me and I have been chased by a knife about 3 times in her life. I have a safe on the counter for sharp objects and some days her attacks come out of the blue while I am cutting something. I am a single mom who works, goes to school, building a habitat house and takes care of her. Her dad is mentally disturbed and I didnt realize it until I was already pregnant so he is not a good choice for her. The county fights me to put her in residential treatment and because I am a good mom I don't get help like other parents, basically because I suit up and show up. Ive had windshields shattered, many doors carved into, holes in doors and walls and I am done!!! I am emotionally exhausted and financially. I can only get respite care at the county level and they said they don't have any and I have fought so hard for some. The federal government states that her disability is enough for SSI but not for federal respite care. Her last attack in December 2018 put her in the psych ward for 8 days because she tried to kill me and if I didnt take her home then I was getting charged with child abandonment. I'm so tired.. please what can I do!!! She also has rages at least 4 times a week. Im getting run down and Im so tired, lost and depressed.