Was my shyness around women a sign about future issues I was gonna have in life?
I was labelled a pervert. I still couldn't talk to the opposite sex, I couldn't be near them because I was denying normal curiosity and interests so I was maladaptive I had become avoidant but at the same time we unable to control my interests so it naturally turned out to be very creepy. I couldn't stay on my first job. I couldn't Socialise because I couldn't explain what was happening, I avoided meeting people because I couldn't explain. My self worth and confidence hit rock bottom I couldn't attend interviews, at the ones I did I was sweating and felt nauesous. If I did get a job I'd quit within 3 months.. the longest 6 months after fighting my anxious thoughts Al that time.
Now At 34 I stay at home doing nothing but brood, ruminate and painfully staring at walls while **** scared to tell anyone what's happening besides my therapists and they cannot help me much because my social support, my family and no one else.