Any genuine act of charity will bring at least some reward. Don't forget that, for many, mercy and forgiveness are just a breath away, at any time, day or night.
Some of us out here are actually more fond of the idea of you being saved than you might possibly imagine.
The only way to salvation is via heart to heart and spirit to spirit. The flesh will pass away but the spirit will continue for as long as Almighty God wills it to.
When the laughter and mockery subside, which they will, of course .......... consider.